1,900 Times Thought Today (Never to Pass)

Sunday morning I walked alone 

To try to find something to distract me from your face 

6am the clock read on my phone

There’s a guy in the park, staring through me,

For I had to get my mind off this fast,

When she's not to pass.

Best friend fast asleep,

It brought me back to thinking of our place,

The sunrise was pretty, but you're the prettiest face.

Realized how this all looks,

When shes not to pass.

I whispered your name like something sacred 

Memories and morning air created

Moments I won't forget,

Never to pass?

Hope you know I never read it

For every reference was something no one else would get

And it would've filled me with immense regret,

You're never to pass?

I looked at a pool and saw the past

And felt regret for not quite living in moments that didn't last 

For street lights make me think of you,

I won't survive. You're never to pass.

Hesitations went through my head,

For if I did end up dead

I wouldn't be in this world that holds such meaning to me.

The meaning came back recently. It won't pass.

I'm no Webb or McCann, but something in me said I was thought that way

I’m lost in thought, not in practice 

Thrown straight off my axis,

When she's never to pass.

I never wanted to run off free,

And stand tall in a series of silent periods,

Door click shut, stare through me

A haunting gaze like I'm another myriad.

But she isn't to pass.

Now I sit listening to music,

Longing for the future and unlived memories.

Lives unlived, kids unnamed,

When things wont move like cogwheels

With kinetic energy.